you were

a star in my sky

striking

& merciless

in your beauty

leaving me

stupefied

enraptured by

your gaze

caressing

my very Soul

reached for yours

& my heart

screamed with joy

& longing

& fear

for how i had been

blissfully unraveled

laid bare

before

your mercy

your grace

ghosted away at the sight

of the weeping wounds

& mangled scars

that made

Me

so foolishly certain

you could still see

my Light

would mean

it’s worth it

to Love me

how naive

to believe a star

could do anything but

obliterate me

with its blinding heat

& tyrannical gravity

while sweet

nothings

& empty promises

left me

reaching

crying

aching

for a dream

unrealized,

a heart

that was never Mine,

& that star

has faded into

a cosmic scar

across my sky

hovering over the abyss

that is

my despair

a deep crimson

pain

that rips through Me

spilling my entrails

with the Life we made

carried in Death’s embrace

through this endless night

i still search for

that star

& all i can see is

an ocean of blood

through the blur

of my tears.