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I tend to go for the ones who will leave

or perhaps I tend to push them away.

 

What is noteworthy,

is that I don’t always push

and they don’t always leave.

 

Many have stayed and

intend to stay for a long time

 

a lifetime

 

is shared between those who are

Meant To Be For Life

and I learn again that

some are only

Meant To Be

 

For Now

 

Love remains

in memories of warmth

and laughter shared

with those who have chosen to stay,

who I have chosen to hold close-

compelled to walk side by side

even when it means walking away

from another.

 

Fear of being alone

tells me I need to hold on

to every hook that catches my heart.

I mistake the hands upon the fishing rod

for my own

until

 

I am left with a hole

where my heart spilled out

as they tore their hook from my chest-

as I ripped mine from theirs-

 

going opposite ways with

the pieces we wove together

from threads of knowledge

that ache as they heal

wounds born of

conflict and care

 

sewn into our own quilt of Self

that is so dearly Loved

by those who remain

 

For Now

 

cradled in my awareness

that life begins and ends

in a moment

and my breath in tune

with my beating heart

is all I truly own

 

and in the void

where Has became Had

is the continued expansion

of my very Soul

 

the one and only

who can never leave

who can never be left-

 

at least not

For Now.